Isolation.. Desperation… Salvation…
I was sad. I remembered it for the first time. I was lonely, uncared for. I mistook the laughs of many to insults. I have learned a lesson so hard, you might mistake me for a loon. Everyone is alone. Not even sounding right, doesn’t it? Give me, just a time, to understand the pains of being a human and why it won’t go away…
Sure, most can say that life began through love of two beings, and the conception of life. But how certain can it to be just like that at all? A problem, marriage fails, and separation. Not just a special occassion, this being now the norm. And then what, of the child left behind? Pains, and a lot more…
Your boyfriend/girlfriend… i must apologize first if i should cause you and your ‘loved one’ any harm… how long should you both last? At least a year? Forever? The answer, quite simply, is as long as you both want to. How far could that be? As i said, as long as you both want to. One argument, all that it takes. This sick, twisted notion that you call love is nothing more than gut feelings of sexual desires for the other being.
Even more depressing, the isolation of those that people call ‘freaks’ and ‘weirdos’. How can you call every human being unique, when there is someone not belonging in? When everyone strives to become like someone else, now where is uniqueness in that? In their effort to be known, what they don’t realize is that they’re just copying someone else’s image.
But unlike goths or pessimists, i know why am i like this, and i can manipulate that power of sadness into a weapon of great strength. I know, even if i am bound to be alone, i can protect myself, and prove to the world that being alone is much a burden as being famous. At least, through that, i can grow as a different and very much alike human as everyone else…
